So I have a fear of needles, now before anyone says anything, I know most people have a fear of needles, but mine I suspect is quite worse than most. It all goes back to when I was still in college at Drexel, I decided to donate blood because it’s the right thing to do. I went in, started donating blood, and all of a sudden, halfway through the procedure, the fire alarm went off. Now naturally I asked if I should get up and we can continue afterwards, the Phlebotomists said, no lift your legs, 30 seconds later they said “pump your fist fast while lifting your legs.” This goes on and on for about 10 more minutes as they try to rush me to finish. Apparently they found out it was a fire drill going on, but neglected to actually inform me.
Once I was done, they instructed me to stand up as soon as I was done, no fruit juice, no cookies, no crackers, I stood up thinking I was fine, and suddenly felt lightheaded. Next thing I know things start to go black and I pass out. According to the Phlebotomist I yelled out “TIMBER” as I fell to the ground. I woke up 2 minutes later perfectly fine, but with my blood pressure recovering from being bottomed out. Ever since then, any needle sends me over the cliff of panic.
Today, I had to go get part of my toenail removed due to a bad infection from an ingrown. I went in and sat in the chair, and the injections begin. My podiatrist knows my phobia and issues well so she uses a cold spray to numb the skin before the needle is actually used. It’s a good thing too because She gave me about 30+ injections. I was panicking slightly at that point slightly sweating, but holding things together for the most part. I asked about what they were doing after they started removing the nail, and that was when all hell broke loose for me. I saw one of the needles sticking out of my skin and all of a sudden, I started shaking all over, I felt a tingling sensation in my fingers and toes, and my stomach was tingling as well. In the end this panic attack lasted about 30 minutes, which was the longest 30 minutes of my life, I would probably have to say, I had no control over myself but I was so panicked I couldn’t stop shaking at all. In the end, I’m all sliced and diced on my toes and now the recovery beings.
I at least made myself feel better with my Berry Pizza that I made once I arrived home, that and wine solve everything!
I never actually thought that I would be wanting to get an HDTV. Whenever I watched tv on standard def, and never saw any issues with it, I watched HDTV in the past and never was wowed…..in reality, I think it was the cost that offset everything. The sheer cost of an HDTV compared to a SDTV was rediculous. That is until I won an HDTV in a raffle. Now I have the desire to buy another, so I can have one for when people come over to watch, and one for my bedroom. In reality the idea of HDTV is not for the TV, but in reality, it’s the ability to hook up my computer to such. When you combine my computer with an Elgato EyeTV and the TV itself….it becomes a totally different beast, especially with the inclusion of the best Universal remote I have ever used, the Logitech Harmony. It’s quite amusing the new desire I have for TV quality and features….then again, who can argue with a 32+ inch Monitor?
Took long enough to get back, with constant issues thanks to my old webhost and poor support resulting in deleted databases, mislinked files thanks to poor backups, I have switched to a much better webhost with much better support, as well as a shitload of storage. Personally, I think I stink at blogging but hey, I might as well try to get into it, constantly expanding my horizons and all.
Well I’m happy that GMail finally is supporting IMAP, way overdue, truthfully, I can’t see the point of using POP anymore, it seems old and outdated, in today’s age, where we check our email from multiple devices, why should we be bothered to have to mark each message we have already read as read on multiple devices? Even with the logging in, POP ties up the whole damn server, and nothing can check until it’s done, totally inefficient.
I applaud Google for finally supporting IMAP with all that it has to offer. With the constantly growing storage of GMail, it is finally a better option.
Now…off to get ready to deal with the Leopard Launch.
As I get ready for work today, I realize just how much I have changed over the past few months. Wether it’s with my interactions with people or how I take people just simply not giving me a chance.
I have gone from an impulsive Energy crazed person to a more low key person who actually uses his energy when needed specifically for my sales at Apple. Granted, once I use my high energy for sales I have trouble turning it off, but I think I have made some major strides to such. That vacation to Naples was just what I needed, a simple trip that would help me clear my mind and find out what is important to me. But now, I must go to work, and work my ass off for that promotion that I crave.
I’m lapsing again with the posting, so difficult to keep up with the schedule I have. Hell with working for Apple, and for myself, I keep myself pretty busy. Looking forward to my naples vacation though, that’s going to be quite enjoyable. Need to just get the hell away from South Florida. A journey of sorts to help me rediscover myself. It’s going to be worth it in the end. I’ve also been working quite hard on controlling my ADHD more which seems to be coming to fruition. But yea, time to hit the grindstone…. w00t w00t.
yea….I fucking DESPISE Florida women. I went on a date the other night….and dear lord, she was bad. The date ended as quick as it started, because “I didn’t bring her anything from Coach.” You see…I knew Florida women had the potential to be bad, but never THIS BAD. Dear lord, what woman will ignore a guy because on a first date he doesn’t bring her anything from Coach? And to leave 5 minutes later after realizing she isn’t going to get a gift that costs a couple hundred? Yea, I’m glad I’m done with that bullshit, I don’t need that kind of crap.
I’m now working for the apple store as of MONDAY! woo hoo! I got the job! Expect some potential posts from me about it in the future.